Monthly Archives: June 2019

Here I AM

I couldn’t always say that. I was hiding for a long time. Introverts do that. I hid behind my job, my wine glass, the door, and the immense space between me and everyone else. I took on masks and played parts just so I didn’t have to show up as me.  I pretended to be the busy, quirky boss lady of the restaurant…a part that I could play along with.  I was ‘happy’ to be that—until ‘that’ didn’t work anymore.  I finally pushed myself so far that I crashed HARD and couldn’t be that person anymore.  One day I just quit being the boss lady of that neighborhood restaurant and didn’t know what I was going to do or who I was to be next. Thank goodness for it!  I unraveled into a heap of misery, anxiety, and confusion at the door of a healer. It’s been a long time since that first Reiki session with Elizabeth Schermer--  now my teacher and mentor. Yet it is still so vivid in my mind.  In that session, she told me I had BIG work to do—the path was opened though I didn’t know it then. For a long time, I wondered—what is this BIG work she’s talking about? I didn’t find it overnight.  I discovered and nourished it through many energy sessions, tarot card classes, 6+ years of Mystery School immersion, Reiki attunements, plant medicine studies, Qabalah studies, Muna-Ki rites, and an epic spiritual journey to the ancient land of Egypt and its sacred sites.  From these teachings, I created a connection and a relationship to my spirit and to the energies that support us- in all ways -  always. I know the magic I have and can create. Hieee! I'm Diana. I AM a Spiritual Coach and Shamanic Alchemy Reiki Master—my [...]

My Freedom is TOO much

Okay, so you know how I sold everything, quit my job of 11 years, and moved into my tiny home on wheels to go ALL in on being and doing my coaching and healing work?  Or as I say changing my life.  Well, with that comes the open schedule, the less structure, the more free time, the endless possibilities of what I could/should be doing, right?  What should I do? How should I do it?   Should I post on social media today? Should I do a oracle reading? How can I help more people? What am I going to write about? What should I do first? What is my inspiration/message today? What time do I eat, sleep, walk the dog, shower, and in what order?  So, many things that I get to DECIDE.  And sometimes that seems so overwhelming that I freeze and just do this and that without really doing things really intentionally or productively. All these things are up for me. I get to make my day go how I want.  But what is it I want? What will get me to where I want to be?  (That's an interesting question that just flowed out) What is my day for?  Is it for me? Is it for my work? Is it to get results? OR is it to BE?  To BE what? To be at peace? To make a difference? To keep things moving forward? To get money in the bank? To get clients to help? To take care of my life, all the details to just live, stay alive?  THIS is a pretty big question--"What is my day for?" I am going to sit with this question. I do think it is a bit of all these things. BUT I want to know the underlying motivation/vibration of [...]

What do I say ALL the time?

They say you teach what you LOVE. (not sure if 'they' really say that, BUT I SAID it) They say that the type of people you serve are the ones that you learned the most from. You've been there.  You know the struggles, the desires, the feelings, the passion that is in THE thing you help with.  It's what you're interested in, it's what you would give time to for free, it's the thing that you keeps you curious and leaning in. It's what gets you all jazzed up, feelin' alive, and purposeful/connected. Sit for a second and think a few people, places, items, jobs, etc. that do this for you.  List them out in your journal.  How many of them correlate to the people you serve right now?  How many correlate to the 'work' you do?  How many of them do you see, do, feel, and enjoy most days of the week? OR just maybe who you serve- "your work' -has nothing to do with your job.   I hope they showed up a ton in your life.  I hope that there's some direct links to what you love, who you serve, and your 'work', and what you do. I hope that even if there's not a bunch that there's a few. AND, what if there's not a bunch? Well, then, my lovely one, you have some rearranging to do. How can you incorporate more of the things you love and 'your work' into your life, into your dream? I recently realized that I was set on a path to keep doing what I was doing FOREVER.  And a BIG 'HEC NO!' followed. So, I sat with this.  And then I sat with, "Well, what can I do instead?"  And then I sat with, "Okay, I can do that, but how [...]

When LIFE gets in the way of the DREAM

Many of my clients are women who are entrepreneurs or want to be, therefore, many still have their 'day jobs.'  Many have 'day jobs' and also have a rich, beautiful, & fulfilling life. Many have the 'day job' & just a ho-hum life that feels like it is on a loop.  Wake up, hurry to get ready for work, do work, come home, eat dinner, watch Netflix, have a glass of wine to celebrate your hard work, & then go to bed...and then wake up & do it again.  [HINT: everyone's life is pretty much on a loop, so what's different?] How you show up to WHATEVER your LIFE is IS the thing!  You can have the most boring, shitty job & still be frickin' happy.  You can have the most fun, fabulous, & enviable job & still be bored, sad, frustrated, & hate your life. Showing up is the thing.  For the everyday. For the priorities. For the present. AND THEN THERE'S THE BIG DREAM -- THE NEXT THING -- THE LIFE YOU DESIRE You may have one BIG dream or maybe you have your dreams in many areas of your life. (I recommend both)  So, you might have a health dream, a relationship/family dream, a home dream, a travel dream, a financial dream, a shoe dream, or a career dream.  These are all parts of your life.  You may have a few you are focusing on right now with the others in the back of your mind. GREAT, right? "So, tell me what I don't already know Diana?"  That's what you're asking right about now, yes? What I want to tell you is that sometimes you have the BIG dream--you even know in DETAIL what it looks like, feels like, smells like--and then one day you realize you are not going to get there doing your [...]

I did it! I changed my Life.

I did it! It's been awhile since you all have heard from me, yes?  I'll get into the reasons why on that in a minute, but first I want you to celebrate with me. I DID IT!!!!! I changed my life. Last year was full of changes for me and that's a BIG part of why you haven't heard from me.  I took a new position at the old 9-to-5 J-O-B and it left me very little time and energy to put to my business.  It was different hours and more responsibility. It was closer to home, which I loved, but it was robbing me of the juice I needed to devote to this project. It was a 'Wheel of Fortune' year for me (according to the Tarot Growth Cycle).  In a Wheel of Fortune year there can be many changes.  So, that happened.  I changed jobs and location...and I thought that was the change of the year...BUT NO! There was more change to come. I realized a few months after the job change that I had set myself on a path to do that work forever. WAIT! WHAAAT????  Oh no, no.  That's not my dream.  That's not the plan. Since starting this business of spiritual coaching and healing I have always talked about "Doing Your BIG Work" "Following Your Inner Drop" and "Doing the BIG Scary Thing." Well, it is time for me to put my money where my mouth is, right? So- it got me to thinking...'Di, what is THE plan then?  How are we going to get to the dream, the passion, the life you desire????'   When these questions came up it made me realize how stuck I was. How I let my life slide into the normal day-to-day, the busy-ness of modern life...I had let go [...]