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Here I AM

I couldn’t always say that. I was hiding for a long time. Introverts do that. I hid behind my job, my wine glass, the door, and the immense space between me and everyone else. I took on masks and played parts just so I didn’t have to show up as me.  I pretended to be the busy, quirky boss lady of the restaurant…a part that I could play along with.  I was ‘happy’ to be that—until ‘that’ didn’t work anymore.  I finally pushed myself so far that I crashed HARD and couldn’t be that person anymore.  One day I just quit being the boss lady of that neighborhood restaurant and didn’t know what I was going to do or who I was to be next. Thank goodness for it!  I unraveled into a heap of misery, anxiety, and confusion at the door of a healer. It’s been a long time since that first Reiki session with Elizabeth Schermer--  now my teacher and mentor. Yet it is still so vivid in my mind.  In that session, she told me I had BIG work to do—the path was opened though I didn’t know it then. For a long time, I wondered—what is this BIG work she’s talking about? I didn’t find it overnight.  I discovered and nourished it through many energy sessions, tarot card classes, 6+ years of Mystery School immersion, Reiki attunements, plant medicine studies, Qabalah studies, Muna-Ki rites, and an epic spiritual journey to the ancient land of Egypt and its sacred sites.  From these teachings, I created a connection and a relationship to my spirit and to the energies that support us- in all ways -  always. I know the magic I have and can create. Hieee! I'm Diana. I AM a Spiritual Coach and Shamanic Alchemy Reiki Master—my [...]

What do I say ALL the time?

They say you teach what you LOVE. (not sure if 'they' really say that, BUT I SAID it) They say that the type of people you serve are the ones that you learned the most from. You've been there.  You know the struggles, the desires, the feelings, the passion that is in THE thing you help with.  It's what you're interested in, it's what you would give time to for free, it's the thing that you keeps you curious and leaning in. It's what gets you all jazzed up, feelin' alive, and purposeful/connected. Sit for a second and think a few people, places, items, jobs, etc. that do this for you.  List them out in your journal.  How many of them correlate to the people you serve right now?  How many correlate to the 'work' you do?  How many of them do you see, do, feel, and enjoy most days of the week? OR just maybe who you serve- "your work' -has nothing to do with your job.   I hope they showed up a ton in your life.  I hope that there's some direct links to what you love, who you serve, and your 'work', and what you do. I hope that even if there's not a bunch that there's a few. AND, what if there's not a bunch? Well, then, my lovely one, you have some rearranging to do. How can you incorporate more of the things you love and 'your work' into your life, into your dream? I recently realized that I was set on a path to keep doing what I was doing FOREVER.  And a BIG 'HEC NO!' followed. So, I sat with this.  And then I sat with, "Well, what can I do instead?"  And then I sat with, "Okay, I can do that, but how [...]

When LIFE gets in the way of the DREAM

Many of my clients are women who are entrepreneurs or want to be, therefore, many still have their 'day jobs.'  Many have 'day jobs' and also have a rich, beautiful, & fulfilling life. Many have the 'day job' & just a ho-hum life that feels like it is on a loop.  Wake up, hurry to get ready for work, do work, come home, eat dinner, watch Netflix, have a glass of wine to celebrate your hard work, & then go to bed...and then wake up & do it again.  [HINT: everyone's life is pretty much on a loop, so what's different?] How you show up to WHATEVER your LIFE is IS the thing!  You can have the most boring, shitty job & still be frickin' happy.  You can have the most fun, fabulous, & enviable job & still be bored, sad, frustrated, & hate your life. Showing up is the thing.  For the everyday. For the priorities. For the present. AND THEN THERE'S THE BIG DREAM -- THE NEXT THING -- THE LIFE YOU DESIRE You may have one BIG dream or maybe you have your dreams in many areas of your life. (I recommend both)  So, you might have a health dream, a relationship/family dream, a home dream, a travel dream, a financial dream, a shoe dream, or a career dream.  These are all parts of your life.  You may have a few you are focusing on right now with the others in the back of your mind. GREAT, right? "So, tell me what I don't already know Diana?"  That's what you're asking right about now, yes? What I want to tell you is that sometimes you have the BIG dream--you even know in DETAIL what it looks like, feels like, smells like--and then one day you realize you are not going to get there doing your [...]

5 daily pillars that are holding me UP right now

This year, 2018, has brought a bunch of changes for me.  I have made decisions and moves that I hadn't even considered at the end of last year. I have been challenged and uprooted a bit by these changes. AND I'm still feeling, considering, and throwing around ideas and plans for even more changes. To no one's surprise...I'm in a 'Wheel of Fortune' year. [ If you're curious about what cycle of growth for the year you're in shown by the wisdom of tarot--you can find out by scheduling a session with me.  It is one of my favorite tools to use to get a perspective on where you're at and why what's going on is going on.] Right now. My mind is awash with the dreams and schemes AND then it falls into the fear, the 'what-ifs', and 'how is that gonna work'. Argh! Since May I have been immersed in my new job [y'all know I have 'day job' as well, right?]  I am managing people in a whole new environment and learning new duties and responsibilities.  That's has been a handful.  Along with the many challenges of raising up the standards of service and responsibility of the crew there was the added tragedy of one of staff members (and friend) passing away by suicide. It hit the staff really hard, of course. The impact of having this tragedy with a staff so new and the stresses of our work already has made me really show up as a leader.  And in ways that I wouldn't have been in the past.  With compassion and with strength. There are so many threads of information that fed into these moments that supported me and showed me the path for me to follow. One of the most spectacular is that at [...]

full moon hangover. time to plant new seeds

Full Moon Hangover. Time to rip out the old and to plant new seeds. Yes, I do mean rip it out.  It feels that final to me.  The things that aren't working, that you don't need, the habits/patterns or addictions that you are SO done with... they gotta GO!  BUH-BYE! This is what I am feeling after the Full Moon on Monday.  In addition to being really tired on Tuesday. I had to take a whole day of downtime to realign and get back into my daily mode of operation.  But I don't want to fall back into it totally!!!  I shifted. I'm ready to rip out what's not working.  Yup.  That's me right now. I want to scream what I want on top of a HIGH mountain.  I want to do it dressed as a warrior goddess or like the Mother of Dragons.  Yes.  Like her.  On a mountain top with two huge dragons right beside me.  I am ready to step into what is coming & I claim it.  Anybody who wants to question or dismiss it--well, they will have me and my dragons to deal with. Want to join me in this vision? Why do I feel so strongly about this RIGHT now? Universal energies are totally aligning in ways that are supporting this energy of new truths and new loves right now.  There has been much build up to this- thousands of years, in fact.  I really feel that what we choose to step into, to pursue, to change, to nourish, to love, to grow, to build, to create...this time right here is the best time to go for it.  You can create it.  Believe it. This Leo Full Moon ( & Lunar Eclipse) and an upcoming Solar Eclipse at the New Moon.  It's being called, [...]

holding up a mirror after 20 years…the power of friends

My old friend came to visit for a few days.  Wow!  You know how awesome that is?  We haven't even been in close touch over the last 20 years.  But when you're friends, you're friends, right?  Her husband thought she was crazy to even suggest coming to visit.  Very confusing to both of us, we thought nothing of it. Making close friends and keeping them is hard in our busy and often far apart lives.  I kinda forgot how awesome it was to have someone that just gets you, that you have a ton of shared memories with, that you have similar interests, values, and outlooks with.  Hard to do today, right? It was curious to see my 20-year younger self through the lens of seeing her again.  To remember things about myself and what I love and who I am and how much of that person is still there.  And then to reflect on that as I plan and create what's next for me is super empowering and strong. Remembering who you are assists you in rising to what's next for you. I loved hearing about how her life has unfolded and become blessed.  It renewed me and my endeavors. Looking back always has me feeling vulnerable.  Who you were. Your choices. Your mistakes. Your heartbreaks and old flames.  All of this is in your face with old friends, but you know what all those things are: lessons, joys, embarrassment, and beauty.  We all have them.  The good and the bad. This is the great thing about true friends who get you and love you no matter what crazy shiz you're up to. It's harder to find these close friends who you know this well as we get older.  I found this great article on 9 ways to catch [...]

into the wild

I am really feeling the pull of earth and animal energies this year.  I feel really safe, nurtured, and calm when I am just BEing in the forest or even on a walk.  I love to notice the changes in the trees, meadows, birds, and dirt are going through.  I immerse myself in their texture, smell, and especially this time of year-Winter, their starkness. I think this is due to the ever-shifting nature of our worldly world...we need a place to anchor to.  Being in Nature has always allowed me to go deeper into myself.  If you are feeling isolated or lost  with the current situation and the energy of too much worldliness...then retreat into nature and come out stronger for it. I have felt the companionship of a few particular animal energies this year so far.  Oddly, last year it was 'Donkey'.  I learned a bunch from these sturdy, helpful, and stubborn animals.  This year it is the wild and strong 'Wolf' energy.  The other is the beautiful and healing bird the 'Flicker'. Flickers are in the woodpecker family and are held sacred by many.  There feathers are used by healers.  I have a few.  I love them!  The quill part is orange and then I have some with the polka dots.  Totally cool.  I have incorporated them into healing tools.  A rattle and a feather smudge wand  used to break up stagnant energy and cleanse the energy field. Feathers have big medicine to offer. Ever since the December Moon Cycle I have been feeling Wolf energy.  And it has been showing up in my dreams and many other places. When I am curious about animal energies I encounter or feel, I go to Ted Andrews book called "Animal Speak- The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & [...]

let’s play a game

A game?  Sounds fun, huh?  Sounds needed.  Sounds like it might help move things out of the density that seems to have its claws dug in deep lately. There's a so much going on in the world that things seem to be magnified and more emotional than EVER.  I feel overwhelmed and don't know where to begin to do....um, anything!?  In a way I feel like that I should ONLY be focused on fighting, standing up, and showing up.  Reading and educating myself on what the most important things are right now.  Where to go and what to do.  What to say and how to respond. And yet... I still need to take care of myself and my loved ones.  I still need to work and do chores.  I still need to find beauty and love in the world.  I still need to do the work that is for me to do. I can't do it all. Nor can you. Everything is up right now.  We are being called in BIG ways to really show up and create the ways in which we want to be in this world and with each other.  How are we going to do that? Nothing changes without challenge.  Well, we have our challenge now...so what are we gonna do with it?  So far I have been thinking of the big picture- of what is happening in the larger world.  But truly change happens within each of us first.  The growth and progression that needs to be brought forward can't come forth unless we break out of our ruts and find some real true motivation. So let's start with where we are and who we are. This game (which I'll tell you about in a minute) is to find and nurture the things that makes [...]

your head and heart need this from you

I'm certainly feeling the overwhelm and constant ups and downs of my emotions over the past few weeks with the change of 'leadership' in the United States.  There are holes breaking open in my spirit and heart.  Thankfully, moments later they fill up with all the love I DO see.  Only to be spilled out again with the next barrage of hate and greed.  This back and forth is exhausting.  Are you feeling it? So, what to do, Dear Ones?  I start with where I am and what I can control.  That starts with me and my home and loved ones. I'm really feeling the need to anchor myself to my daily practices, my home, eating and cooking delicious and nourishing foods, beauty, inspiration, nurturing relationships, nature, and physical movement.  I need things I can turn to to fill myself back up. To create a strong world within. To build my courage and convictions so I'm to able stretch myself when the time comes. You have to take care of yourself first.  You can't keep up the good work or your BIG work, if you are in a puddle of despair and disorganization. As Boss Ladies [and Warrior Goddesses], we are and will be called to inspire and help others now more than ever.  Everyone's work just got BIGGER.  And it is OH SO EXCITING!  There is a call being sent out that we must answer with our hearts.  This call is to stand for how and what and who we are.  We are not the hate, fear, and divisiveness that is being vomited from some people.  WE ARE NOT THAT.  Let's find ways to be, do, and create that shout this far and wide.  Worldwide, as is being done by so many right now.  The TRUTH is the truth [...]