How I am managing walking in the unknown---regularly.
I couldn’t always say that. I was hiding for a long time. Introverts do that. I hid behind my job, my wine glass, the door, and the immense space between me and everyone else. I took on masks and played parts just so I didn’t have to show up as me. I pretended to be the busy, quirky boss lady of the restaurant…a part that I could play along with. I was ‘happy’ to be that—until ‘that’ didn’t work anymore. I finally pushed myself so far that I crashed HARD and couldn’t be that person anymore. One day I just quit being the boss lady of that neighborhood restaurant and didn’t know what I was going to do or who I was to be next. Thank goodness for it! I unraveled into a heap of misery, anxiety, and confusion at the door of a healer. It’s been a long time since that first Reiki session with Elizabeth Schermer-- now my teacher and mentor. Yet it is still so vivid in my mind. In that session, she told me I had BIG work to do—the path was opened though I didn’t know it then. For a long time, I wondered—what is this BIG work she’s talking about? I didn’t find it overnight. I discovered and nourished it through many energy sessions, tarot card classes, 6+ years of Mystery School immersion, Reiki attunements, plant medicine studies, Qabalah studies, Muna-Ki rites, and an epic spiritual journey to the ancient land of Egypt and its sacred sites. From these teachings, I created a connection and a relationship to my spirit and to the energies that support us- in all ways - always. I know the magic I have and can create. Hieee! I'm Diana. I AM a Spiritual Coach and Shamanic Alchemy Reiki Master—my [...]
Okay, so you know how I sold everything, quit my job of 11 years, and moved into my tiny home on wheels to go ALL in on being and doing my coaching and healing work? Or as I say changing my life. Well, with that comes the open schedule, the less structure, the more free time, the endless possibilities of what I could/should be doing, right? What should I do? How should I do it? Should I post on social media today? Should I do a oracle reading? How can I help more people? What am I going to write about? What should I do first? What is my inspiration/message today? What time do I eat, sleep, walk the dog, shower, and in what order? So, many things that I get to DECIDE. And sometimes that seems so overwhelming that I freeze and just do this and that without really doing things really intentionally or productively. All these things are up for me. I get to make my day go how I want. But what is it I want? What will get me to where I want to be? (That's an interesting question that just flowed out) What is my day for? Is it for me? Is it for my work? Is it to get results? OR is it to BE? To BE what? To be at peace? To make a difference? To keep things moving forward? To get money in the bank? To get clients to help? To take care of my life, all the details to just live, stay alive? THIS is a pretty big question--"What is my day for?" I am going to sit with this question. I do think it is a bit of all these things. BUT I want to know the underlying motivation/vibration of [...]
They say you teach what you LOVE. (not sure if 'they' really say that, BUT I SAID it) They say that the type of people you serve are the ones that you learned the most from. You've been there. You know the struggles, the desires, the feelings, the passion that is in THE thing you help with. It's what you're interested in, it's what you would give time to for free, it's the thing that you keeps you curious and leaning in. It's what gets you all jazzed up, feelin' alive, and purposeful/connected. Sit for a second and think a few people, places, items, jobs, etc. that do this for you. List them out in your journal. How many of them correlate to the people you serve right now? How many correlate to the 'work' you do? How many of them do you see, do, feel, and enjoy most days of the week? OR just maybe who you serve- "your work' -has nothing to do with your job. I hope they showed up a ton in your life. I hope that there's some direct links to what you love, who you serve, and your 'work', and what you do. I hope that even if there's not a bunch that there's a few. AND, what if there's not a bunch? Well, then, my lovely one, you have some rearranging to do. How can you incorporate more of the things you love and 'your work' into your life, into your dream? I recently realized that I was set on a path to keep doing what I was doing FOREVER. And a BIG 'HEC NO!' followed. So, I sat with this. And then I sat with, "Well, what can I do instead?" And then I sat with, "Okay, I can do that, but how [...]
Many of my clients are women who are entrepreneurs or want to be, therefore, many still have their 'day jobs.' Many have 'day jobs' and also have a rich, beautiful, & fulfilling life. Many have the 'day job' & just a ho-hum life that feels like it is on a loop. Wake up, hurry to get ready for work, do work, come home, eat dinner, watch Netflix, have a glass of wine to celebrate your hard work, & then go to bed...and then wake up & do it again. [HINT: everyone's life is pretty much on a loop, so what's different?] How you show up to WHATEVER your LIFE is IS the thing! You can have the most boring, shitty job & still be frickin' happy. You can have the most fun, fabulous, & enviable job & still be bored, sad, frustrated, & hate your life. Showing up is the thing. For the everyday. For the priorities. For the present. AND THEN THERE'S THE BIG DREAM -- THE NEXT THING -- THE LIFE YOU DESIRE You may have one BIG dream or maybe you have your dreams in many areas of your life. (I recommend both) So, you might have a health dream, a relationship/family dream, a home dream, a travel dream, a financial dream, a shoe dream, or a career dream. These are all parts of your life. You may have a few you are focusing on right now with the others in the back of your mind. GREAT, right? "So, tell me what I don't already know Diana?" That's what you're asking right about now, yes? What I want to tell you is that sometimes you have the BIG dream--you even know in DETAIL what it looks like, feels like, smells like--and then one day you realize you are not going to get there doing your [...]
I did it! It's been awhile since you all have heard from me, yes? I'll get into the reasons why on that in a minute, but first I want you to celebrate with me. I DID IT!!!!! I changed my life. Last year was full of changes for me and that's a BIG part of why you haven't heard from me. I took a new position at the old 9-to-5 J-O-B and it left me very little time and energy to put to my business. It was different hours and more responsibility. It was closer to home, which I loved, but it was robbing me of the juice I needed to devote to this project. It was a 'Wheel of Fortune' year for me (according to the Tarot Growth Cycle). In a Wheel of Fortune year there can be many changes. So, that happened. I changed jobs and location...and I thought that was the change of the year...BUT NO! There was more change to come. I realized a few months after the job change that I had set myself on a path to do that work forever. WAIT! WHAAAT???? Oh no, no. That's not my dream. That's not the plan. Since starting this business of spiritual coaching and healing I have always talked about "Doing Your BIG Work" "Following Your Inner Drop" and "Doing the BIG Scary Thing." Well, it is time for me to put my money where my mouth is, right? So- it got me to thinking...'Di, what is THE plan then? How are we going to get to the dream, the passion, the life you desire????' When these questions came up it made me realize how stuck I was. How I let my life slide into the normal day-to-day, the busy-ness of modern life...I had let go [...]
In my last note to you, I shared that I had started a new position and made some changes in my day job. Those changes were big and full of huge learning opportunities--on the job, personally, and it has really got me thinking. It got me thinking about what I want my life to be. It got me thinking about where my life was going and where I had been putting it on hold...waiting for the BIG dream and the things I want to just happen. I saw that I was on a path-- a path that didn't want to be on. I saw that I was a path to do the 9-to-5 forever and that is not what I want. I realized, really realized, how I was not showing up for what I want my life to be, what I want to do, and how I want to live. Things don't just happen. YOU have to make them happen. You have to show up. I know you have been following me awhile and you know how always talk about doing your BIG work and doing the big scary thing...about doing the thing that scares you AND that makes you excited-- BOTH at the same time. WELL NOW IT IS TIME FOR ME TO START WALKING MY TALK. SO the BIG announcement! My loves have always been food, animals, nature, trees, discovery, adventure, travel, and cooking. I also know that things are the amazing ways to reconnect to yourself, to drop into yourself, to remember who you are and what you love. To feel alive in your body when you dig into the earth, when you take a bite from a tender leaf right in the garden, when you experience where your food comes from and all the people and [...]
This year, 2018, has brought a bunch of changes for me. I have made decisions and moves that I hadn't even considered at the end of last year. I have been challenged and uprooted a bit by these changes. AND I'm still feeling, considering, and throwing around ideas and plans for even more changes. To no one's surprise...I'm in a 'Wheel of Fortune' year. [ If you're curious about what cycle of growth for the year you're in shown by the wisdom of tarot--you can find out by scheduling a session with me. It is one of my favorite tools to use to get a perspective on where you're at and why what's going on is going on.] Right now. My mind is awash with the dreams and schemes AND then it falls into the fear, the 'what-ifs', and 'how is that gonna work'. Argh! Since May I have been immersed in my new job [y'all know I have 'day job' as well, right?] I am managing people in a whole new environment and learning new duties and responsibilities. That's has been a handful. Along with the many challenges of raising up the standards of service and responsibility of the crew there was the added tragedy of one of staff members (and friend) passing away by suicide. It hit the staff really hard, of course. The impact of having this tragedy with a staff so new and the stresses of our work already has made me really show up as a leader. And in ways that I wouldn't have been in the past. With compassion and with strength. There are so many threads of information that fed into these moments that supported me and showed me the path for me to follow. One of the most spectacular is that at [...]
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Here are some ways to gather all the inspiration from the Summer and go into Fall with a plan. Summer is so filling. It fills us up with yummy foods, time in nature, and lots of activities. Above is a picture of me on a recent camping trip. I wanted to be in the beautiful outdoors for the Great American Eclipse 2017. It did not disappoint. I was in the Methow Valley part of Washington State. It felt like I was nestled in the lap of Gaia. It's a lush valley surrounded by high mountains. The drive to this amazing valley took me through the gorgeous North Cascade mountains. Here's a picture of the high peaks. Taking time away to rest, renew, and re-energize also reminded me of 3 things. I am so in love with going to do and see amazing things. I feel so charged by this. I am part of a larger picture that I need to claim. I belong and I have power. I stay at home too much. :/ What energizes you the most about summer? I did a personal tarot spread as the eclipse was commencing. It is a super powerful message for me to remember as I move into what's next. It provided an affirmation and tools for me and my BIG work. It encouraged me to use my voice more to bring in the truth and light to those that are ready to join me in taking action toward their BIG work. It reminded me of what can hold me back and what sets me free. I used a combo of the Thoth deck and the Animal Spirit deck. Here's a pic of the spread on my picnic table. So, I have returned and I'm so ready to flow [...]