How I am managing walking in the unknown---regularly.
I couldn’t always say that. I was hiding for a long time. Introverts do that. I hid behind my job, my wine glass, the door, and the immense space between me and everyone else. I took on masks and played parts just so I didn’t have to show up as me. I pretended to be the busy, quirky boss lady of the restaurant…a part that I could play along with. I was ‘happy’ to be that—until ‘that’ didn’t work anymore. I finally pushed myself so far that I crashed HARD and couldn’t be that person anymore. One day I just quit being the boss lady of that neighborhood restaurant and didn’t know what I was going to do or who I was to be next. Thank goodness for it! I unraveled into a heap of misery, anxiety, and confusion at the door of a healer. It’s been a long time since that first Reiki session with Elizabeth Schermer-- now my teacher and mentor. Yet it is still so vivid in my mind. In that session, she told me I had BIG work to do—the path was opened though I didn’t know it then. For a long time, I wondered—what is this BIG work she’s talking about? I didn’t find it overnight. I discovered and nourished it through many energy sessions, tarot card classes, 6+ years of Mystery School immersion, Reiki attunements, plant medicine studies, Qabalah studies, Muna-Ki rites, and an epic spiritual journey to the ancient land of Egypt and its sacred sites. From these teachings, I created a connection and a relationship to my spirit and to the energies that support us- in all ways - always. I know the magic I have and can create. Hieee! I'm Diana. I AM a Spiritual Coach and Shamanic Alchemy Reiki Master—my [...]
I'm certainly feeling the overwhelm and constant ups and downs of my emotions over the past few weeks with the change of 'leadership' in the United States. There are holes breaking open in my spirit and heart. Thankfully, moments later they fill up with all the love I DO see. Only to be spilled out again with the next barrage of hate and greed. This back and forth is exhausting. Are you feeling it? So, what to do, Dear Ones? I start with where I am and what I can control. That starts with me and my home and loved ones. I'm really feeling the need to anchor myself to my daily practices, my home, eating and cooking delicious and nourishing foods, beauty, inspiration, nurturing relationships, nature, and physical movement. I need things I can turn to to fill myself back up. To create a strong world within. To build my courage and convictions so I'm to able stretch myself when the time comes. You have to take care of yourself first. You can't keep up the good work or your BIG work, if you are in a puddle of despair and disorganization. As Boss Ladies [and Warrior Goddesses], we are and will be called to inspire and help others now more than ever. Everyone's work just got BIGGER. And it is OH SO EXCITING! There is a call being sent out that we must answer with our hearts. This call is to stand for how and what and who we are. We are not the hate, fear, and divisiveness that is being vomited from some people. WE ARE NOT THAT. Let's find ways to be, do, and create that shout this far and wide. Worldwide, as is being done by so many right now. The TRUTH is the truth [...]